Yet again I am being plagued by disturbing dreams. Often at this time of year I am dreaming about school. It seems that the transition and business of the end of the year brings on the school dreams. I have had a couple odd school dreams. However even more than school images my Dad seems to be showing up a lot lately as I try to sleep. He is alive in my dreams but his illness is always in the background and in many of my dreams he has been angry with me for whatever reason. Last night's dream was frightening. It took place in my home yet the setting was in the war torn middle east. I conversed with Dad's doctor and told him that I thought Dad was dying. The doctor then went on to tell me that my brother was sick too possibly with AIDS. Where the heck did that come from???? Next my brother shows up in my home looking for food. After scrounging in the cabinets and finding what he wanted he was gone. Finally my family ended up running from bad guys in the desert. This must have been just too much for my subconscious as I abruptly woke. So strange. In order to not return to the dream I prayed myself to sleep. This is something my Mum taught me when I was a little girl. She would have me say 'Hail Mary's' to help me fall asleep. I have to say that for me this strategy works. So clearly I did not have a restful night's sleep. I find it harder and harder to shake off these strange dreams. They stick with me throughout my waking hours. I wish I knew what they meant. More than anything I wish they would go away.
Not the most uplifting Sunday post but it is what I am managing in this moment. If anyone has any pearls of wisdom about dream meaning please feel free to share.