So many have told me....
"He's in a better place."
"He isn't suffering."
"He is with your Mum."
"He is safe."
"He is better off."
"He is with God and all of his family."
"He went quickly, it could have been worse, you could have watched him linger."
"It's part of life."
I know that people have good intentions when they say these things. I believe all of these things to be true. I have said these words in the past. I won't say them in the future.
Even though I know these things in my mind. In my heart there is no acceptance. I ache for one more smile, one more story, one more laugh, one more twinkle of those bright blue eyes. My heart breaks and sometimes the tears come and I can't make them stop.
Why couldn't we have kept him with us just a little bit longer? Why do I have to miss him soooo? Why is it so hard? Why does it feel like I am the only one who feels this way about him?
Why does my heart not understand what my mind knows too well?
Why please tell me why?